Fool saala

Yet again, as always, not the stupidity, but honesty., genuine care., nimiety trust., that went wrong..
Not everyone values these obtuse qualities..
I should have listened to my friends,
When they said you'd be in trouble again..
Then I would have never wasted All this time on you..
Now I feel uncomfortable...
No you don't need to explain..
Though we can work it out.,
I'm not going to play your games,
I just can't take it anymore..

Me Against Myself

I love myself, and I hate me. I am baffled, and I am sorted. I fall in love, and I break hearts. I am calm, and I am hyper. I am serene, and I am tranquil. I keep patience, and I show vexation. I love abode, and I hate the habitation. I adore friends, and I ignore friends. I am loud, and I am quiet. I have trust, and I have suspicion. I have faith, and I have incredulity. I like music, and I hate lyrics. I love wandering, and I hate the maps. I love speaking, and I hate small talks. I love debates, and I hate arguments. I love rain, and I hate the slop. I can fall and I can slam. I can mess, and I can solve.
But.,
Why do you start, and then you end. Why do you love, and then you hate. Why do you make, and then you break. Why do you show, and then you throw. Why do you feel, and then you kill. Why do you mind, and then still smile. Why do you say, and then get away. Why do you save, and then show the grave. Why is this bond, and then all gone..

Cause it's a fight between Me Against Myself. I am Me and You are Me too..

Another Shatter

So again, after all the restrain, all the hitch, all the ignorance,  the heart is doomed. Being a peachy human can lead you to it. The core of fondness is bathatic and Cathartic talk. Initially when you get in touch with someone, you don't begin with personal talks. But as soon as you spend more time together, the bond increases, so do conversations, so do suggestions, so do intimation, so do sharying, and you end up caring way too much.
Caring is not bad, it riffle you into a nice being. But when it cross the limit, the fondness increases, which ultimately leads to love. And the root of all the pain is this affection.
If somebody bide with you forever, you can ignore the remnant craps. But when you know that all this is transient setup, you get stuck somewhere. Neither you can move forward nor backward. You stop, so do your life, so do others' whose strings are attached with yours.
So is their any solution.? Yes indeed. Stop dwelling, stop being personal, be mean, be arrogant, be rude, and ignore where response is mandatory. Until and unless you are sure about one, that they will be with you for life, don't bother.
You will end up being one exonerated fool, keep loosing cool, hanging in drool, drowning in pool, if you are following the wrong rule.. 

A Blank Diary

Yes, I am gifting you an Open and Blank Diary that resembles Me. You can fill it up with all the happy and sad moments of your life. If you replete this Diary with all the cheerful, euphoric, blissful and riant moments., you will Love to open and read it again and again. If you fill it with some of the sad, bittersweet, doleful and melancholic moments or times (Which I wish you never have to face), you will keep it safe as the most precious and valuable thing in this world so that no one can read it. I just want to be that Diary., so that you remember me, share with me, keep me safe like I am all yours.. :)

Fear of Love..

Fear of Love.. I know this sounds dumb and obtuse., but yes, I am disinclined to Love.. Not exactly by love, but by the pain that we have to suffer with, when we loose our loved ones..
I know I am in love again, but I am not devise to fall. Cause I cognise, if there is no future with her, I have to face that anguish again.. I can't endure it, that's what I afraid of., that's my Fear of Love..
I know she loves me too, and she say it all the time., but I don't have strength to accept it, cause after all these golden memories, will surely come the pain to leave her.. That's disturbing, that ruins my pace of life, and I can't handle it again and again.. I want to be monogamous for life., or else I opt to be single. Don't know when I'll find that axenic soul who think like me. That's my Fear of Love..

Last Year..

Last Year brought a Lot of alteration in Life.. Left Home, Left Mom, Left Love, Left Family, Left Friends, Left Homemade food, Left text books, Left my city, left my pretty.. What I Got.? Got new city, got new place, Got first Job, Got first Boss, Got first Salary, Got new friends, got new pranks, got beautiful hearts, and super crazy tasks.. Few things didn't changed., like Love for family, friends, work, and Music.. Hoping for better future..

A Twitter Story..

My Exams were just over and I wanted to Kill time.. But facebook was not an option as It was seized by my relatives till now. So I decided to go back on Twitter after almost 2 years.. I met Her via worldwide Trending Topic.. We followed each-other, Soon we became good friends.. We used to talk almost everyday about our day, plans, hangouts, troubles, issues, fun, etc etc. She turned into my best friend cause their was no bar of hesitation between us. There were no mutual friends, no judgement on views and thoughts between us., we used to speak our heart out without any vacillation. We actually started calling each-other as Love, Sweetheart, honey. :D Then slowly I came to know that she was suffering from a severe disease.. Her Backbone was very weak. Still she was Happy, joyful, and Living her life with full spirit and cheer.! I used to learn a lot from her. she taught me How to live every single moment of life without bothering about your pain. Life was at its normal pace for next 3-4 months. Everything was going flawless in her life, except that back pain and sometimes bladder pain.. She used to post about that every now and then.. Suddenly, she stopped tweeting.. Almost 15 days passed. Then one day she tweeted- "Having a fever of 104., it might be My Funeral tomorrow." I replied- " and how your followers are supposed to know about your funeral.?" Her reply was- "I Don't know.! :( " That was her Last Tweet.. After 10 days of her absence on Twitter, I mentioned her saying- "Hey where are you these days, enjoying Life too much huh.? Not even getting time to tweet.?" No Reply Though.. I forgot about the incident. Then after a week I got a tweet from an anonymous account saying- "She Passed Away.." I was shocked, more of angry for such bad joke.. I tried to confirm the bad news.. That was True. It was her cousin, they unlocked her account and replied to every mention.. I was stunned., didn't know how to react on this. I mean she was Just a Twitter Friend., and I was here just for time-pass.. How can this news effect me so gravely. Well now I know, its in our Human nature. We always look for care, concern and attention from friends.. No matter how far they live, How rare We meet, nothing.., its only about being human. Social Networking- is Not Just a Timepass sometimes.!!